It’s been quite a long time since I have written a blog post. I was busy with work and family but it’s not the actual reason I couldn’t blog. Whenever I opened my laptop to type, I struggled to find words. I stared at the laptop screen and it stared back at me. There wasn’t any message on my mind to write. I felt emptiness. I felt strange. And slowly a fear began to grip my heart… what if I can’t write a blog post anymore, what will people think about me? Will their trust be broken? Will the followers unfollow me? Will people ridicule me? Isn’t there any message God wants to put on my heart this time? So on…
My blog posts are birthed from my life experiences, daily life happenings, my devotion time and my insights on how I see things through the eyes of faith despite the struggles of life…and I always make sure I publish a blog post once in two weeks at least. During this season of my life, I felt God is telling me to slow down a bit, listen to Him, keep aside the perfection mask, be myself, and write the message not out of the obligation to write but out of the joy which He gives to my heart and a sound nugget of wisdom through His Word.
In the zest of blogging, I lost sight of the fact that it’s not about me but about Him (I confess). I am only a source of His message and when He nudges my heart with it, I am to share it with others. Many times, our desire to be known, accepted, and valued makes us forget the true meaning of our Calling. Instead of making Jesus our focus, we focus on our fame, our validation and our perfection. We strive hard to get things done in a perfect way, fearing the opinions of people, and trying to measure up with each effort. But the truth is, God doesn’t want us to be perfect, to be wrestling to give our best, to measure up with others or to safeguard our social status. He simply wants us to be ourselves, the imperfect, broken vessels, whom he can use for His glory.
In today’s world, every TV show, every commercial and film tells you that you are not enough. You’ve got to strive hard to come up to the measuring scale of this world. Your personality, your skin colour, your skills, your education, your clothing style, your standard of living have to match the existing trends and systems. We being so influenced by the world, often forget to understand that our true value and worth isn’t based on our performance or people’s opinion about us or the social image we cling to but it is based on what God says we are, how He sees us and wants us to be.
We only need to be genuine in the work He has entrusted to us. We need to do things His way. Our calling, our purpose, our gifts and potentials are all about Him. And He knows how to use them the best way possible. We only need to be obedient to Him, not striving for perfection and accomplishments but striving to see His will be done in and through our lives.
When I released myself from the perfection trap, it took the pressure off and I was able to write this message to you with a sense of freedom and joy inside. And all my fears turned into convictions knowing that He is faithful to complete the work He began in me. I regained the confidence that by His grace and strength alone I can do everything.
I will cry to God Most High, Who performs on my behalf and rewards me [Who brings to pass His purposes for me and surely completes them]! Psalm 57:2
Can you remember a time when you thought you were doing what God wanted you to do, but it didn’t turn out the way you desired? Was your confidence shaken, not just in yourself, but in God too?
It’s easy to lose confidence when things aren’t working the way you thought. But let’s not our goal be perfection but realness.
If you struggle in the areas of your performance, trying to be perfect and precise in everything you do, fearing the opinions of people and striving hard to measure up, my encouragement to you today is just get yourself released from the perfection trap. Always remember that God accepts you the way you are. He wants to use your brokenness, realness, your flaws and your imperfections through which His power will be made perfect. Your imperfections will bring Him more glory than your perfection.