A few days back as my husband and I were having a talk in our kitchen, he asked me a question.
“Why are you so slow and dull when you are working in the kitchen but energetic when you are working at the laptop?”
He was right in his observation of me and I also admitted that the kitchen is not my thing. Either I work too slow thinking, dreaming & travelling in my thoughts or I do just what is necessary to get the kitchen work done as soon as possible.
To express my feelings in a more elaborative way, I told him a story which I read a few months ago; it really helped me understand why I am the way I am.
The story goes like this:
One day a man caught three fish from a stream. He placed them side by side on the grass. Before he removed them from the water, they were so vibrant, graceful and alive but after he caught them, it was another story.
As the fish lay on the grass, they were motionless. Their eyes had no movements, they panted for air and they looked and acted weird. The man noticed that they seemed unhappy, so he talked to them, hoping that his encouragement would change them.
Still no movement, no response and no change.
The man was sure that the fish would adjust and learn to like the grass. He liked the grass so why shouldn’t they? He thought. But still the fish didn’t blink and they just lay there looking dumber by every second.
Finally a little boy approached shouting, “What are you doing? Put them back! They can’t be all they’ve been created to be when they are out of the water.”
After getting convinced, the man carefully placed each fish back in the stream. As soon as the fish got into the water, they began to swim fluently with their original vibrant energy. The man realized that no matter how long the fish lay there, they would never adjust to the grass. In fact, they would eventually die. Because they weren’t created for grass but for the stream.
I told my husband, “I feel like a fish on the grass doing kitchen things which is not my gifting and thus I can’t give my best here. But when I am writing, creating something, exploring, encouraging others, investing in their lives, seeing my life is being used for Kingdom work then I am more like a fish in the stream.”
I remember, a couple of years back, I felt so inactive, dull, weird and unhappy with my life. No matter how hard I tried to adjust myself with the daily house chores and convincing myself that the role of house wife is the best and fulfilling thing I could ever do, there was something missing. My heart wasn’t coming fully alive when I did these things. I felt incomplete. I just felt the same as the fish on the grass until one day I understood that I was created for a specific purpose apart from the household work I do. My feelings were the real me. There were reasons why I felt and acted this way and why I had this dissatisfaction within me; I was created with those inner desires, potentials, and God’s assignment for my life.
When I allowed myself to unlock my feelings and listen to my inner voice, God helped me to identify the treasure He has given me. The treasure included my potentials, my interests, my personality and my life experiences. Now it was time to use it for His service and glory. Once I was able to use this treasure in all the possible ways I could, I felt like those fish in the stream…vibrant, energetic and alive.
Have you ever felt the same way?
I don’t know which place you are in at present. You might be on the grass feeling motionless, dissatisfied with your life, desiring to be in the place you were created for and holding your passion for something different. You know in your heart that this isn’t the place you are meant to stay, or this isn’t the work that you want to do for the rest of your life. You are created for a specific purpose apart from your daily works and job. Something inside of you makes you restless until you step into that purpose. Your feelings of dissatisfaction, the irresistible desires to do something different and the courage and faith you are building inside are the signs you are here to make a remarkable impact on this generation. Don’t let your feelings die within you.
“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” Ephesians 2:10
My encouragement to you is to unlock your inner feelings and desires to identify the treasure God has placed inside you when He created you. He wouldn’t have given you those feelings, potentials, personality and life experiences unless he planned to use them for His glory. Let your life get vibrant, enthusiastic, lively and thriving discovering your very purpose and the treasure inside you. Let your life’s treasure be used for His glory. I pray you discover it and live your life to its fullest.